is it the light that fades away, or i'm getting blind?

i hope it's the latter. i really do hope so.

summer school starts tomorrow. hope that will occupy me enough to get these what-ifs the hell away from my head.

when i feel like this, i usually get ferocious, so i always look for something to kill. too bad sam and david aren't here otherwise we can kill a bunch of orcs in warcraft. so i looked over at some old games i haven't played in a while, and there it was: JEDI KNIGHT II: JEDI OUTCAST.

haven't seen kyle katarn and his macho beard in a while so i decided to go visit him. we killed a bunch of guys with lightsabers but i sucked ass. if it wasn't for the cheat i'd usually find myself got cut in half or decapitated by the third person i fought. so that wasn't a good stress reliever. seeing people get decapitated or limbs cut off just didn't quite feel the same as it used too.

what did i get myself into?

tried some yasunori mitsuda's compositions for chrono cross, but they didn't help either. if those didn't help, then this could very well be serious.

i'll wager a donut, those of you reading this have NO idea what i'm talking about.

i need some time alone at the cove, staring blankly at the night ocean. it used to help me relieve anxiety and a bunch of whatifs, and i bet it would have helped this time, had it not been 116 miles away.



wonder if my parents would notice if i take the corolla out for a drive this late.
hmmm....................