Tuesday, October 31, 2006




fuck. 4 more to go.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

the tiniest of melody

mou tsukareta...
mou dame ka mo shirenai...

rie-chan, what would i do without you? thank you.

lyrics/translation here: nostalgic lavender

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

little things

i'm such a nerd, i laughed so hard at this:

and this sign never fails to amuse me everytime i pass by it on my way home.

on happiness (or lack thereof)

finding happiness in graduate school is a lot like chasing the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow: you'll never succeed because it just does not exist.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Friday, October 20, 2006

work in progress, baby

hope i can finish this on the weekends. this is my media of procrastination because i have three homework assignments and two midterms next week.

i haven't said this since 3rd year of college:


Thursday, October 19, 2006

today will be good

ocean drew this really creepy eye, so i added hair and blood to make that. creepy, isn't it? i likey.

4th week is about to end, but somehow it still feels so far away, especially with two midterms next week, and two homework assignments due on the same day as one of the midterms. people who go to gradschool are really masochist. i guess, not knowingly, i am one too. it's unfortunate that i did not realize that beforehand.

BIG BIG THANKS to tsubasa from aku-tenshi, who fed my addiction to rie fu. i accidentally found DECAY and 2CM on youtube when i was procrastinating from doing homework, and immediately fell in love with rie fu's voice. so i spent the entire week browsing the net to find her songs but never succeeded. at the end of the week, i decided to go to kinokuniya to buy her cd because i was apparently completely addicted to her voice by this time. i was broke, and still am, but i needed her songs, so i scraped whatever money i had left and marched into kinokuniya to buy her cd.

turned out they don't have the cd. jerks.

tsuba ended up being the one who supplied me with an entire album's worth of rie fu, PLUS angela aki. i've never heard of angela aki until tsuba told me about her, so i googled her up and i could've sworn it was love at first sight. if she isn't the prettiest woman alive, i don't know who is.

and best of all, she sings one of my favorite songs of all time: KISS FROM A ROSE, originally by SEAL. one of her song "kiss me goodbye," is a soundtrack for final fantasy XII, if i recall correctly. check them out:

Angela Aki - This Love
Angela Aki - Kiss Me GoodBye (English)

and she speaks perfect english too. go to youtube and look up angela aki if you want to see videos of her performing life with a piano.

last but not least, some rie fu songs that have been keeping me sane the past week:

Rie Fu - 2cm
Rie Fu - Decay
Rie Fu - Shine
Rie Fu - Beautiful Words

if you don't like japanese songs, SHINE and BEAUTIFUL WORDS are entirely in english, while 2CM and DECAY are partly english. rie fu sings perfect english, which is not surprising considering that she went to a music school in london... or so i was told. her music is a combination between piano and acoustic guitar, and they blend really well with her voice.

god bless people with beautiful soothing voices. they keep me sane.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

time to get a new one?


very true.

2.11am and i'm on problem number four on my quantum homework that is due in a little less than eleven hours. three done, six more to go. my mind started to wonder where i am going with this kind of lifestyle, and then my finger started typing and my mouse started clicking and i ended up reading funny quotes at fontgarden.com

money, life, a shave; a phd student needs not such thing, said mike slackenerney, but right now i sure as hell could use some life... and then maybe, just maybe, a shave.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

fucking kets.

|i> and |j> are eigenkets of hermitian operator A. under what condition can we conclude that |i>+|j> is also an eigenket of A? justify.


kaboom is the correct answer.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

dear dank

i miss my slacker buddy. =(

so, this whole joining a research group thing was a result of a misunderstanding. what happened was: i went to my advisor just to talk about whether or not i can check out what's going on with his project, etc, etc. (emphasis: JUST TO CHECK OUT). i asked him if i should start attending group meetings. not getting involved in a project, but just attending the meetings to see what's going on, what's being discussed, what's the project status, what's the problem with it, etc., because you know, sitting in a meeting just listening couldn't hurt. my advisor thought that i'm such a motivated person that even in my first year that's packed with classes, homework, teaching, grading, and other stuff, i'm already looking to join a group.

so he introduced me to this research faculty, saying "hey, this dude want work," which was replied with "oooh, that's good. we need help."

and deep, deep down inside, i hated myself for not being able to scream out "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" at that time. all i did was smile.

that's how i got myself into this mess. super-motivated? no. i just happened to get stuck because of my own stupidity.

the plus-side, though, is that i get to go to japan. and depending on how things go, i might be able to go as early as this november.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

the 9th life of a cat

i think i've used up all eight of them. this is my last one.

surprisingly, some people complain about the lack of update on this blog, including my own dad. it's rather disturbing when you get an email from your dad with a short message saying "you haven't been blogging, what happened?"; it gives you the same vibe as "are you still alive?"

well, to my own surprise, i am still alive and kicking (or being kicked, either way works). my teacher used to say that no matter how busy you are, you have to stop and smell the roses. i still smell the roses, even though everytime i do i have to snatch a bunch from the garden and smell it while i walk from one place to the other.

before gradschool started, i thought of making a short comic everyday to give everyone an update on how things are. well, now that it has started for two whole weeks, i guess it should give you a hint on how things are, considering that not a single comic has been produced in the past two weeks. school is so busy i barely have time to doodle in class. one time i even had to FORCE myself to stop taking notes and doodle something on a notebook page, next to a derivation of the lagrangian, just to re-assure myself that i still know how to doodle.

i think the x-gloves are the coolest thing ever.

i took the initiative to talk to one of my professor and joined a research group. bad move. when they told the incoming grads that first year should be used to focus on classes, they weren't lying. i ended up joining the superkamiokande calibration group at UCI and almost instantaneously got assigned to live in the basement, in the middle of electronic equipments and a gazillion rolls of cables. there is also set-up with a photomultiplier tube that has a potential of 1800 volts that i have to avoid to make sure i don't end up dead. i call this set-up "ENERU" just because everytime i look at it, i am reminded of the time when eneru shocked the bejeezus out of skypiea.

i'm still functional, too, just so you know. i can still draw an eEC+a:

and i can still draw some gay.