so time passed, left behind, forgotten

i learned a lot about life tonight, not so much about quantum mechanics.

it sometimes scares me, to find out that something that is built over two-years worth of effort can collapse overnight. the path to achievement is long and twisted, but the path to destruction is a geodesic. i guess you have to be jesus to build the temple of jerusalem in three days.

irony is a part of my life, apparently. i have been irritated by my parents lately because they would call me twice a day, to make sure i don't lose my sanity and jump off a building. they came to visit today, and even to my own surprise, i enjoyed having them around. o h t h e i r o n y.

disappointment and disbelief strike when you find out that the person you once knew very well, has now changed into a completely different person because of outside influence. and it's like adding salt to the wound when you find out that the change is hurting another one of your close friend. i like changes, it makes life a lot more interesting, but there are things that i hope would never change. like the yellow on a sunflower petal. like the reddish sky when the sun sets. like the feeling when talking to someone you like over a cup of coffee for three hours.

dilemma is a part of everyone. believe it or not, when you think you've already know what you want, that you've made up your mind, there is that little chunk inside your brain that thinks otherwise. this is a pretty bold statement for a physicist, but no one can EVER make up their mind; everyone's minds are constantly in a continuous state of disarray. it's like when jonathan driscoll said "i'd be happy if i end up with any one of the twin, but i'd still wanna do the other one."

suddenly im missing the old days.