oh wait, nevermind

i believe in divine intervention. i believe that when you're about to do something stupid, the divine being will smack you upside the head and remind you to not do anything stupid. like last night when i was driving and suddenly felt the urges to floor the gas pedal but almost immediately lost the urges to do so. then i found out about three seconds later that there was a cop behind me. had it not been for divine intervention, i would have gotten another ticket.

so all was good.

but here's what sucks. you are tired and burnt out from everything and you just feel like quitting. you want a life that is peaceful, a life that does not require you to deal with too many problems, a life that is lazy. just when you have successfully built up the courage to resort to such a life, the divine being once again intervenes and surrounds you with signs that basically tells you to stop whining, get off your lazy ass, don't give up, get used to it, and suck it up.

damn.