KEVIN

paintshop pro has got to be the hardest image editing program to use. wonder what kind of idiots work there?

computer is still dead, maybe i'll go check it after my midterm on monday, but as of now sam is out with his girlfriend so his laptop is mine. mine mine mine.

david got a girlfriend. quite amazing, considering that he never leaves his lab. but then later (a couple seconds later) i found out that they work in the same lab. wow. i guess never leaving the lab finally pays off.

so here's one for you, david:

if every day was as good as today, i couldn't wait until tomorrow come

if. big keyword.

too bad that's not what the reality is like.

things look bleak lately. nothing, i repeat, nothing has been going right. even CPK didn't have carne asada pizza when i was really craving for carne asada and pizza at the same time.

i guess this is the downpoint. the downest one could ever experience. being on the sixth floor of a building late at night when you're down is rather scary, sometimes. it's almost as if you can completely understand the thoughts running through the minds of those who committed suicide by letting gravity and the pavement do the job.

midterm grades came out to be fine, so i guess i have to be thankful for that, but the darkness is so overwhelming that even bright lights seem to be fading away instantaneously. even when the sun is out the entire day, it seems like everything around you is gloomy. things aren't looking so luminous anymore.

i miss a smile. i miss looking at someone's face and realizing that there is happiness. usually it is comforting to see a smile on someone's face, because then i take comfort in the fact that even though things aren't going too well, there is a glimmer of hope for happiness. but lately, even the prettiest smile cannot bring out that glimmer of hope. the negative energy has clouded my mind.

i've lost count of how many times i've sighed today. **sighs**

graduate students pick-up line

from phdcomics.com. these cracked me up so hard i just had to post them:

"your eyes are like my references... i get lost just looking at them."

"are you in my thesis committee? cause i'll do anything you tell me to."

"let 'u' and 'i' be irrational integers such that a real non-monotonic relationship exists for all t = 0, 1, 2,..., infinity."

"baby, you make wanna graduate."

sam

sam's little brother is amazing. he managed to screw sam over and over and stayed alive.

one time he faked sam's death. it's funny to see how many people would call to his cellphone asking him if he really died in a car accident.

so a couple of days ago i got home in the afternoon and checked the mailbox. i found this one postcard for sam (his registered name is sing lam, we call him sam) from playboy magazine, offering a subscription for 12 issues for only $10, INCLUDING free DVD of nude co-eds.

sam wasn't home at that time, so i left the postcard on my desk because i needed to go back to school. the plan was to make fun of him later on that night. turned out that i had to stay longer than i thought at school and didn't get back until 2am. by that time, sam had already gone to bed. as i walked in to my room, i found the postcard still sitting on my desk, only now accompanied by a note.



wonder what his brother is up to now?

home is where the heart is

not this week.

if you ever wonder how it feels like to be in a physics lab from monday to friday, from 7am to 1am, go home for a 5-hour nap, and come back the next day to do the same thing again, AND STILL NOT GET ANY OF THE ASSIGNMENT DONE BECAUSE THEY ARE JUST FUCKING RIDICULOUSLY HARD,

don't even try. it'll hurt. it'll hurt you for eternity.

but somehow i get the feeling that this will be what the rest of my life look like.

here's my WTF list of the week:

WKB analysis method
galerkin method
complex analysis
vector potential of a spiraling current

"i believe the probability of a miracle, though infinitesimally small, is NOT EXACTLY ZERO" is the quote that i kept telling my mind to prevent it from going crazy.